Does anyone still remember me? I’ve been off of WordPress only about a month but it feels like so much longer. I feel like I have to learn how to be a blogger all over again. I can’t be the only one.
A few months ago I told myself that by October I wanted to reach my 1K follower goal. Well, that didn’t happen because everything else did and I had to step away and take a real break. Many things were broken in the month of October, but by the end… Things may just be getting better. I’ll have to keep pushing forward to find out.
So what exactly did happen last month? That’s what you might be wondering. I’m back to give you all the minor details.
In my last What’s Up Wednesday post I mentioned how things weren’t going so great with my living arrangements, we found out we couldn’t keep or afford the apartment anymore. Technically we could afford it but some people like to splurge when they know rent is due and that kept giving us setbacks. I’m not talking about myself.
A few days into October my boyfriend and I had a huge fight, and I do mean huge. Actually right after my last post which is why I did not return like I had planned. Things were broken around the apartment including our relationship. I won’t speak about the exact reasons for the fight or breaking up, but know that it wasn’t an overreaction type of situation. He messed up. I got all of my things and left with nowhere really to go. For weeks I moved around from house to house with different family members.
He is back with his mom and so are our pets. I miss them so much and it hurts so much. They suffered from our problems. Izabelle didn’t like moving to his moms, she hid in the closet for days until I came over to comfort her. Now she is doing much better. We also got a new kitten that I planned on introducing before everything happened…
Her name is Zoey and she is about 4-5 months now. Isn’t she adorable? Maybe I’ll still do a proper introduction soon. She’s doing fine at my boyfriends moms, probably because she’s so young and adventurous. The guinea pigs are doing fine as well but I probably won’t do anymore YouTube videos of them.
I actually don’t know what to call my “boyfriend” we had been trying to work things out but our time apart has only made me realize so much that I was in denial about while we were together. We still talk everyday and see each other sometimes, there’s no hate between us but it’s definitely not the same. It may just be 2 years down the drain. He doesn’t want to lose me but I can’t promise anything at this moment. Whether we fix things or not he’ll always be around, he’s been around for over 10 years in our family.
I ended up staying with my cousin for a while, I’m still at her place with her big family. Everything is fine, it’s a bit more stressful not having as much alone time but at the same time I needed to be around friends/family. They have helped me a lot through all that’s been going on.
I also ran into someone from the past which was strange because I had been getting signs like dreams and tarot readings (that I sometimes watch/read for fun) that someone from the past would be coming back into my life. There was no bad history, we just kind of stopped talking. I even prayed to be guided and sent to where I needed to be, who I needed to be around… Two days after that prayer is when the big fight happened. So I’m not really sure what is happening but something definitely is. I’m not jumping into anything but I’ll mention this situation again as time goes by. When I came to my cousins house towards the middle of October things have just started to feel right and better ever since, the last week of October was amazing but obviously I’m still torn and hurt trying to figure out what’s next. I learned and found out about many things that has shaken my life up but I look forward to the good from it all. There’s usually something better coming when life is shaken up like this.
Another thing is I plan to go back to work soon and maybe even enroll back in school sometime next year. I’m going to get back into my crafts and continue working on a poetry book and many other things that I had been putting off to the side. I feel more motivated now. You may see me back on social media slowly but surely, I’m going to be making changes and improvements everywhere. I haven’t forgot about the posts I planned such as natural hair and Fun Friday, those will be coming. I definitely need to work on SheLivesLove and not neglect it anymore so I will be busy.
I really hope all is well with you all, I hope that whoever is reading this has had a wonderful October and a great start of November. I hope to chat with you all again. I was away for a while but not for good so this is me updating you on my crazy life and welcoming my own return. Don’t be afraid to leave a comment, email me or whatever you wish💖
Thank you for reading.