Impression: Daily Word Prompt

I wanted to try out a daily prompt. I’ve been seeing them from The Daily Post but just haven’t had the time or motivation to participate in one yet. Well now I do! Today’s word prompt is the word “impression.”
I just wrote this poem literally minutes ago and I didn’t think about it or edit. I just wrote. Let me know what you think in the comments✨

Wrong Impression

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

Faulty opinions; everybody has them

Defamation

False accusations and allegations

That’s where I shut you down 

As I make my statement what do you say now?

Just an expression

You’re just expressing your first amendment?

Or you say that in that way, you didn’t really mean it

I’m offended when my intelligence is insulted

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

I am a strong woman

I am not weak because of the fact that when you bark 

I do no speak 

Actions speak louder than words

Your soft little bark was not feared 

I don’t entertain you

You entertain me with your delusions and your words with no credibility 

You entertain me with your jealousy 

And I will be your confirmation 

Yes

I am an easy target

A battle with me will be like easily losing to your worst enemy 

When you’re so focused on me

You miss out on your own possibilities and opportunities 

Yet I still only wish the best for you

If for good reason, I’d be happy to finally see you smile

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

I’m not the type to kick you when you’re already down 

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Short Story Saturday✨

Who’s got a shoulder when I need to cry
I feel restless and I don’t know why
Cry for help, but still feel alone
Like a motherless child along way from home
Lord I’m lost I can’t find my way
I’m dealing with the struggles in my day to day
My soul is weak and I wanna be strong
I try to run away but I’ve been running too long…
Motherless Child lyrics

Everyone has a mother, that’s how we’re all here. That’s why many of us are getting ready to celebrate Mother’s Day.

I haven’t been able to celebrate properly since my mother has been away, out of my life since I was about 3 from what I can remember. She was trapped in a high that could not accept motherhood. I always hoped some miracle would happen, where she would come back for me or we would meet. But if we met would she notice me? I probably wouldn’t recognize her. It became a dream of mine to meet my mother and have her love, and for that I would give anything up.

(Today’s story is not fiction. This is a part of my life. Listen to the songs that inspired me to tell this portion of my story and the poem I wrote: Kehlani – The LetterLabrinth – JealousJohn Legend – Motherless Child) *I highly recommend listening to these songs if you haven’t already. Especially if you have a similar story*

Sophomore year a miracle happened but I didn’t have to give up anything. I rarely get to see my mothers side of the family and I barely know them. I’ve only met my uncle, my grandparents, and 2 cousins so it’s always nice when I do get to see them. My uncle contacted me and my older brother D, (I’ll just call him by the first initial of his name) D is the brother that was in foster care with me, but had to stay when my father got me out because we only share the same mother. We were so close when we were younger. Sadly things aren’t the same…

Back to the story, we were informed we would be picked up to go spend some time with him and our grandparents. For some reason, I felt like it was more to it than that. I had this really good feeling in my heart like something great was about to happen. I was right.

When we arrived at my grandparents house, there was a woman standing outside on the porch waiting. I couldn’t recognize her but I guess my heart could? I felt it and knew in my heart who that woman was. I got out of the car and we basically went to each other with open arms. Before we got out the car my uncle said “We have a surprise. That’s your mama,” but like I said, I already knew. It was supposed to be more of a surprise for me because my brother had a little more contact with her than I ever did. I guess because he is oldest so it was easier for him to understand things. She instantly started to cry and apologize for not being there all those years, and for doing the things she did that kept her away. She made sure to tell me she loves me and always has. She was just sick and she wished she could take it all back. I was never angry at her and I couldn’t cry because I was just too happy and shocked that the moment was even happening. It could have very well been a dream.

I thought things would change that day, but this time my thoughts were wrong. She disappeared and I didn’t hear from her again until I was about 20 years old. I had been looking for her, asking around. Calling my uncle asking him. No one knew where she was or had heard from her in a while, but then my uncle calls back and says they’ve found out she’s in the hospital with pneumonia. He gave me the hospital name and some other information and we hang up. I immediately call the hospital but the nurse tells me she is sleeping at the moment so call back in a little while. I believe she gave me a specific time to call back, I’m not sure but I’ll go with that. I called back at that specific time and finally, I heard my mothers voice. She told me the nurse told her that her daughter called (I’m her only daughter) and she felt such a blessing over her and hoped I would call back. We talked for a while and I made plans to visit, it felt like that same miracle all over again. Only this time maybe things would turn out better, maybe the timing was better. Maybe meeting under the circumstances would bring a change in her. I don’t know. I just always have high hopes.

Finally arriving to her hospital room and hugging her again only made those hopes higher. Sadly, I was wrong again. We kept in touch a while longer than the first time, but not long enough. This time she was gone right before Mother’s Day…

I can’t explain what I felt then, but it was much worse than any pain I felt before meeting her. I even wondered if I should just give up because it would always end like this. Everyone told me she would make promises she couldn’t keep. Maybe I should have listened…but I can’t. I can’t give up on her or my hopes of having that mother daughter relationship I’ve always wanted and deserved. Maybe the 3rd time we meet will be the charm.

Letter To My Mother Away

Mother you’re away still 

I’ve never been able to celebrate with you for Mother’s Day,

or any other occasion.

Every year I watch all the other sons and daughters with their mothers

I tell my aunt Happy Mother’s Day! But it’s just not the same…

She has her own children 

Like you have your own

But you left yours to be all alone

High off life without me

It couldn’t have been easy 

But it was harder being low and sober 

You needed it but you didn’t need 

Me as a baby, and the thought of you leaving

The pain makes me queasy

And I blame you for many things

The root of my pain 

But I never hated you

I still love you 

Even when I barely know you

It’s such a shame

How do you even remember me?

You told me you didn’t remember my little brothers name

But I still love you

I was still happy I could be there with you for a moment 

and you were okay

It felt like a miracle 

I was in the hospital only months before from that car crash

Then there I was 

Walking through hospital doors 

To meet you alive

Smiling and laughing 

Giving me advice for the first time

Promising we’d keep in touch this time for the second time 

It was the best day of my life

I thought I’d finally have you in my life

And I did for a while

Then Mother’s Day came around

You were no where to be found…

Mother away

It’s been about 2 years since then

I haven’t heard from you since

But I’ve been told you’ve been seen and you’ve been asking about me

Is it true?

But if you really wanted me 

I know you could find me 

just like I found you

Still I love you

And I have hope

Broken hope 

That has not died

And If it’s not too late

When you come around

(Please don’t wait 

to come around)

I’ll be by your side 

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For My Friend…✨(Cancer, leave her alone!)

I’m doing this post tied along with the inspiration of the day because I believe this post will definitely be inspiring. I don’t know what everyone’s beliefs are, or what everyone’s religion is so please disregard that. It’s not the purpose of this post. 

A very good friend of mine is dealing with a difficult time in life at the moment. Her mother is battling cancer, and she’s already lost her father a long while ago. As I was speaking with her today she mentioned that her mother is now weighing 86lbs. She’s having trouble eating because she’s in so much pain, so doctors are thinking about putting a tube in her so that she can get food right to her stomach. This could mean possibly having to do treatment all over again, but they are afraid if they do that… it may shorten her life instead of keeping it longer.

Another story that yet again has touched me. This time, I put myself in my friends shoes and wrote this poem for her. I sent it to her immediately (I wrote it in about 20 minutes) and she loved it. It touched her like I hoped it would, and she said she couldn’t ask for better friends than the ones she has. This made me feel so good inside! I hope I can continue to encourage and inspire her to stay strong. It hurts so much to see my friend down and dealing with this. She’s such a kind person with an amazing heart, but like most of us that fit that description she seems to have gone through the most heartache.

Please send your thoughts and prayers for my friend and her family through this difficult time.✨

Here is the poem I wrote:

If I could take her pain away

Half of mine would probably fade,

My distressed mind would soon be sane… but those are just what ifs.

I couldn’t stand to see a days wake without first seeing her smiling face.

Where will I go if heaven shall take?

How can I handle more pain,

Loneliness and emptiness in my heart?

I know she’d want me to be strong,

and to hold on.

I know I’ll have another angel watching over me-

But what if I can’t feel her presence?

I’m already so close to letting go

I just want her to be stronger

Cancer, leave her alone.

I need her here a little longer,

But I know it’s only vain to say

when you don’t care about your victims. 

I feel as if I am even threatened.

God please answer my prayers

For a miracle as such 

I’d drop to my knees 

Rejoice and sing!

I know you mean well.
You know what’s best and make no mistakes,

But cancer has mistakenly chosen my mother and I am losing hope

Almost as if it’s killing us both.

It’s not vain to know you have the last say, so I’ll keep faith

I’ll keep praying

God please don’t let cancer take my mother away.
At least not so soon 

I don’t know what I’d do.

But I have to trust in your plan and know that

This too shall pass…

As with life

When the sky brings night,

The sun too

Always shines again.

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Featured image via trekearth.com

Blog Updates!

Good morning everyone!

Today I have a few updates to share with you all starting with the daily inspiration posts, this is something I wanted to try out to see how it goes and so far it’s doing well! However, I will only continue it for a month. May 12th will be the last daily inspiration post but that doesn’t mean the inspiration in my posts will stop! It’s not easy searching for a great quote every day that does not sound similar to others so, I’d much rather post according to how I’m feeling and not feel obligated to do something specific every day.

More Updates and Series

  • I have started a YouTube channel for my guinea pigs- I want to start a personal channel but I figured I’d see how this goes first. That way I don’t waste time putting myself out there on video and then end up not liking it much. So for now, if you love animals please head over to PiggieVidi TV and subscribe! First full episode will be up before the day is over.
  • I will be active on social media again! (Instagram & Twitter) Follow if you haven’t already and I will be sure to follow back. Instagram Twitter
  • Fun Friday will continue! This Friday look forward to another apartment Find It game! This time we will use the kitchen.
  • I have been slowly re-designing my blog! Visit my site and stay tuned to see all the changes.
  • Those DIY projects are coming! Not just apartment decor either. We’re getting there slowly but surly. I’ve got a lot to show you all. I recently made a baby shower corsage for my cousin who is having twin boys soon! I’ll be sure to show you all the finished product when it’s complete.
  • Short Story Saturday’s! I think this series is going to be my favorite. Every Saturday (on audio) I will post a short story or tell a story. The stories will often be fiction but there will be some based on my own life. I will post the audio link in the post. Eventually this will be moved to YouTube or some other platform.
  • To kick it off, I’m going to post the first Short Story Saturday post today on a Monday! Think of this as an ad or trailer. This one is actually a poem I wrote a while back but still a story is told. Please listen in the link below. Let me know what you think and if you’ll be interested in these story series.

Beauty & Love (Short Story Saturday Audio)


Special thanks to this beautiful young lady for letting me use her picture for this a while ago. Find her on Instagram and twitter @AriannaModels 

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Inspiration of the Day

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How many of you are familiar with this image? I found it years ago searching for inspirational quotes and it stuck with me ever since. I’ve added my interpretation under the art work. I also want to add, if you give up too soon, someone else may be right behind and earn what could have been yours. This is something I plan to do every day on my blog from now on, post an inspirational quote or picture with my interpretation or something I’d like to say with it. I hope you all enjoy this one and that it inspires you to keep reaching all of your goals. Don’t give up! You’re almost there.❤️

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Dancing in the Rain💧(A poem by Lee)


One lonely night the sky starts to cry and the wind sings loudly

The grass and the trees dance swaying from side to side

Some leaves shimmy down

Onto the wet ground

As the skies tear drops play a tune in the night

Drip drop, drip drop

Until the night calms

Drop drop, drip drop

Until the cry stops.

✨Whenever there is rain or stormy weather in general in your life, take a moment to find joy in that moment- go ahead and “dance” or smile! Do whatever you need to do to feel better and get through it because that storm will pass, the sun will shine again, and the rain from the night before won’t even matter anymore.✨

Love Lee

Art From The Heart: Poetry by Lee💖

My art comes from my heart, it flows out into my surroundings in various ways.

Maybe I draw, maybe I paint,

Maybe I write, or maybe I sing.

The art that comes from my heart can come out as a lot of things.

No art is the same every heart is different.

We can stare at the same painting and interpret different meanings.

We can read the same poem and feel different feelings.

Or hear the same song and reminisce on different memories.

My art comes from my heart, so please don’t judge the way I express myself or the way that I think.

Maybe I find beauty in the naked body. Maybe it’s my way of showing confidence.

Maybe I’m comfortable and happy with my sexuality.

Maybe I find beauty in fashion, Don’t judge my designs or the way that I dress.

Maybe I like myself like this.

I love the way I express myself.

Maybe I find beauty in pain and my art tends to reflect the deeper, sadder things.

What is beautiful to me, may be ugly to you.

What is powerful and meaningful to me may be degrading, meaningless or irrelevant to you.

But I will not stop, change, or be ashamed because my art comes from my heart

And it flows out in various ways.

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Thanks for reading! Always remember that we are all unique and what may be art to one, may not be seen as art to another. Things that we enjoy, may not be what everyone else enjoys but it still doesn’t take away the beauty or passion for it. Do what you love and love what you do no matter what others think.✨

Until next time, love Lee.