Today’s To Do✨

✔️Feed/Clean after pets

✔️Wash Dishes

✔️Watch The Real

✔️Post to Instagram & Twitter

✔️Check what the daily word prompt is *Todays word is “survive” this was perfect for my story time that I was gonna wait to do on a later date. Now I’ve gotten it out of the way

✔️Read/Comment/Respond (Doing after posting this)

🌸Record for pets YouTube channel *I’ll probably have to do this tomorrow 

✔️Plan Fun Friday *This week has gone by so fast! Almost Friday already, I should have planned this days ago. Shrugs. I’ll get something together (I brainstormed a few things I can do)

🌸Read a few chapters

✔️Check my Email 

✔️Delete more pictures from phone 

🌸Plan Short Story Saturday 

🌸Work on some new images 

That’s all for today and I’m honestly feeling a bit tired early tonight so we’ll see how the rest of the list goes.   This list may go into tomorrow’s list with a few things added. This weekend I’ll work on a few awards to post next week. I’m not going to sleep before catching up on your blogs and comments! This gif I retwetted earlier is so accurate:

How has your day been? Have you been busy?

To Survive..✨

Graphic images included.

Recently, I was nominated to do The Smile Tag. In the tag you’re supposed to post a few pictures of yourself smiling, or pictures that make you smile and a little about it. One of the pictures I shared was a picture of me smiling a few months after a terrible car accident. Looking back on it and reflecting on it briefly I decided I wanted to tell the full story of that day. I feel like it was significant enough and I will definitely never forget that life changing event.

On January 16, 2015 I woke up thinking it would be another normal day. The first thing I did was text my dad, who was out of town at the time, to tell him Happy Birthday! Most of the day consisted of hanging outside with my uncle and cousin. Around 6 PM we decided to go visit my uncle’s daughter. My cousin was getting tired so he fell asleep waiting for us to get ready. After I was ready, I saw my cousin asleep on his back, snoring with his mouth open lol I wanted to capture this to show him later so I opened my Ipad camera and started to record. The problem was I started recording on front face cam by accident and got myself for only a second. Obviously that isn’t what I wanted to capture so I stopped and then turned the camera facing my cousin and recorded. I didn’t want to wake him up but I knew he wanted to come with us. I’m so indecisive I stood for about 5-10 minutes just deciding on what I should do. Finally something told me to wake him up and I did.

We were in a small truck and I was sitting in the middle, by this time it was around 7:30 PM. My cousin was asleep on the passenger side with his head leaning against the window. For a second I look out of his window and was frozen in place at what I saw coming. I can’t remember the color of the van now, I believe white or gray but I can remember how fast it was coming towards us. There as no avoiding this accident. I thought it was going to be our last day…

“This is it. This is how my life ends and there is nothing I can do about it.” That was my exact thought in that exact moment. It all happened so quickly! I was accepting what I knew I had no control over. The strange thing about it was that I know it was meant to happen the way it did. If I had left without thinking for those few minutes If I should wake my cousin or not, maybe we would have passed that street way before the van got there. If we did somehow still meet with the van, the crash would have been a lot worse for us, but more specifically for me. I felt guilty for a little while because my cousin wouldn’t have been involved if it wasn’t for me. But life works in mysterious ways. I had to remind myself that he would be more hurt if that crash did take my life. The doctors said we were lucky to be so tightly seated together or the impact would have been far worse. We basically helped shield each other in a way. The van hit us on my cousins side. Which means he was waking up to being hit, imagine his fear and confusion. I was crawling out of his window because the door wouldn’t open and at the same time he was yelling at me to hurry. I think we were both frustrated, confused, and wanting to get out of the totaled truck. I was so confused I thought we were hit while turning a corner but we were actually going straight, and spun around.

When I got all the way out I didn’t even notice my injuries, I was just angry and yelling at the woman that hit us, she was freaking out. Apparently she didn’t even have a license or it was suspended. Something was the issue. My cousin and I both suffered from serious injuries and had to be rushed to the hospital. For one, his head was leaning against the window so he had pieces of glass stuck in different places on his face, arm, and hand. My nose was fractured, both eyes were swollen and black, with other lacerations and bruises on my knees, hands, and face including forehead and hairline area. I can still remember everyone around me telling me I needed to sit down because my face was covered in blood, and I literally mean covered! I felt the warmth coming down my face like thick tears but I didn’t feel any pain. I wasn’t worried about that, I was just angry and worried about my cousin who was laying on the ground screaming in pain. I ran to his side and asked him what hurts… He said “everything.” My uncle said I showed a lot of courage that day.

My dad had to fly in from New York on his Birthday. Of course he did’t care about that, he was just glad I was okay but still, that’s got to be a horrible birthday present. Hearing that your child is being rushed to the hospital. Not knowing how serious things are and if they’ll survive. I wondered the same but I did survive, I’m thankful we all survived. He was there by my side and held my hand as I got my stitches. I was afraid and he tried his best to keep me calm. It didn’t help that my doctor was nervous, it was his FIRST time doing stitches on the bridge of someones nose. Yes, he kind of stuck me the wrong way once, not too badly but he managed to safely get the procedure done. The hospital was kind of low on doctors and rooms, I was actually placed in the hallway so we had to take what we could get I guess. After surviving, I realized that if I hadn’t, I would have left this Earth unsatisfied with my life. It was definitely an eye opening moment.💕

If blood and bruises disturb you I suggest not reading any further.

Remember I mentioned taking a couple videos before we left? Here is a screenshot of those videos. You can also see the bruising on my legs. Notice the amount of seconds taken for each of the 2 videos though. My video was 1 second, my cousins video was 16 seconds. 1.16= January 16th. This was not planned and I didn’t notice it until we were back home from the hospital. The last shot of us before the wreck with the seconds equal to the date. Weird right? Guess it’s just another strange coincidence. Again, life is so mysterious.

My 1 second video was so awkward and I’m glad I don’t have those lopsided glasses anymore, lol!

but…😢 (beware the below pictures)

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Here’s where it get’s graphic… Not a pretty sight just a warning, but it shows my healing process.

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I was also dealing with a lot of insecurities at this time. I wasn’t happy with the large size of my nose, forehead, the bags under my eyes or even my smile and this often made me have negative thoughts about my appearance when looking in the mirror or taking pictures. I didn’t feel beautiful. Or maybe I didn’t feel like the standard of beauty. People often make fun of you if you have a big forehead (“5 head as the teens call it in school”) or big nose. Ironically, these features I disliked so much were the main ones to get damaged during the car accident. I thought to myself, “now I really won’t be pretty enough.” But everyone kept telling me I would heal so quickly and I started realizing that I had been taking life and myself for granted. Appearance should be the least of worries. We all have imperfections, we all experience tragedy but those imperfections and tragedies make us who we are.They make us unique. Unique is beautiful! Life is beautiful! Life is also short…So stop taking it for granted.

This is just a weird doodle I made on SnapChat during that time.

The last 2 pictures are from today. You can see that I still have the scars but they’re very faint, you can only see them this well up close. Sometimes I wish they would completely fade but then again, I’m glad I have the reminder of a life changing event. Although it was tragic, I was forced to accept myself for who I was inside AND OUT (you’ll know more about this when I talk about my hair journey.) I was forced to see that beauty is so much more than features. I was forced to realize that I needed to make changes in my life for the better. So in the end, things weren’t so tragic after all. I want you to know that if you’re going through anything right now, you will survive.✨

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Impression: Daily Word Prompt

I wanted to try out a daily prompt. I’ve been seeing them from The Daily Post but just haven’t had the time or motivation to participate in one yet. Well now I do! Today’s word prompt is the word “impression.”
I just wrote this poem literally minutes ago and I didn’t think about it or edit. I just wrote. Let me know what you think in the comments✨

Wrong Impression

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

Faulty opinions; everybody has them

Defamation

False accusations and allegations

That’s where I shut you down 

As I make my statement what do you say now?

Just an expression

You’re just expressing your first amendment?

Or you say that in that way, you didn’t really mean it

I’m offended when my intelligence is insulted

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

I am a strong woman

I am not weak because of the fact that when you bark 

I do no speak 

Actions speak louder than words

Your soft little bark was not feared 

I don’t entertain you

You entertain me with your delusions and your words with no credibility 

You entertain me with your jealousy 

And I will be your confirmation 

Yes

I am an easy target

A battle with me will be like easily losing to your worst enemy 

When you’re so focused on me

You miss out on your own possibilities and opportunities 

Yet I still only wish the best for you

If for good reason, I’d be happy to finally see you smile

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

I’m not the type to kick you when you’re already down 

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Friends For Days🌸

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YAYY! I’m so excited Cheila has nominated me for her Friends For Days Tag:) I was waiting to see when I would be nominated for this and now the time has come. Don’t we all know Cheila? If you don’t you’re gonna love her so go check her blog out in the link below.💖

A Little Note From the Creator Herself:

Dear bloggers, my name is Cheila and I blog over at Pink For Days. I would love to get to know you and your blog, so feel free to stop by and leave a link. I would be happy to read your posts and to support you in any way I could.

Rules:

  • Do a blog post showing your Tag
  • Add the logo to the post
  • Always thank the person who nominated you, provide a link to their blog and, if you like, say something positive and supportive about their blog
  • Choose 5 bloggers that you don’t know very well or that are just starting their blog
  • Go over to their blogs and read a few posts, like and comment
  • Say 3 things you love about their blogs (3 things for each blogger)
  • Those 5 bloggers are automatically nominated to do the same!
  • Nominate two bloggers who have been doing this for a longer time! (you get 7 nominees). Don’t forget to let them know you’ve nominated them!

5 Blogger Nominees I Don’t Know Well:

  1. Pastel Pink Plans– One thing I immediately love is the pink! I also love the name, it’s so cute and sounds exactly like a great blog name, even a planner brand or something lol. You have such a nice variety of posts that I can’t wait to binge through!
  2. Cassi Makeup – I love that as soon as I visit the web page you have your social media sites at the top clear for all to see and takes you right to each. There’s also a search bar which I love on any blog, so useful! I love that you’re so involved already with your followers, I see that you do a post for your 50 follower, 100 follower, and even 100 view milestone, congratulations:)
  3. Falling For Snow – Header image!! Super cuteee. Actually, I love the style of your feature images also. You should definitely stick with that for a while. I love that you’ve been blogging for quite a long time and I can see that you are growing just scanning through everything. I also want to add that I love how you included what you accept (Reviews, collaborations etc) that’s a nice touch I might consider.
  4. Basic Teen Thoughts– I think the first thing I have to say I love is the fact that you’re a teenage blog. I’m 23 years old but teenagers inspire my writing in so many ways with their experiences that I of course can reflect on and relate too. I wish I had the knowledge and courage to start a blog when I was still in high school. I also love your first post, I love how open you were just starting out:) You’r blog will do just fine!
  5. Simply Megan Joy – I love that your blog is a little bit of everything, just like mine but it still ties together nicely. I also love your about me section, Megan Joy is such a nice name and I played violin! The harp seems so beautiful to play. I hope you get your books published:) I love your Mother’s Day DIY, so cute!

Bloggers Who Have Been Doing This For A While:

  1. Clues And Reviews – I love reading your reviews! There’s been a few books you’ve reviewed that I’ve added to my list of books to read.
  2. My Booky Life – Mahriya I love your blog and what you’re doing with the Typewriter Project! I’m happy to participate. You’ve given me a great prompt/topic to write about for the first challenge and I can’t wait to see how the rest of this project unfolds.

Please take the time to view all of their blogs if you haven’t already, I PROMISE you won’t be disappointed.✨💕

Heartbreaking…💔

This first post I’ll be posting today is a little on the sad side. I wanted to speak a little on the tragic Manchester event that happened this past Monday. I had a constant battle with myself this morning whether I was going to speak on a certain point in this event or even speak out about it at all. I decided it was too hard to go unnoticed. 

Anong the 22 victims that were killed there were 2 that really stood out to me for specific reasons. One being the 8 year old little girl… That’s right 8 years old!!!! The other being the first victim identified: Georgina Callander, 18.

Georgina had actually met Ariana Grande, her favorite singer, 2 years before!

On her Twitter page, there were also some chilling tweets she had posted before it all occurred dating back to 2016. The tweets and her account have since gone viral. Take a look



Now some people may think it’s just a few coincidental tweets. Some may even think it’s fake. These are not photoshopped tweets, you can go to the page yourself and view them along with her best friend confirming that Georgina was a victim and this is in fact her Twitter account. Celebrities also! A few cast memebers from Once Upon A Time met her recently and they took several photos. You can see one of the photosbas her default image. Georgina was a huge fan. 

I always have to make little connections to everything in life and this is one of them. This was no coincidence. Life is so mysterious that it’s scary. Of course she didn’t know what would happen but the fact that those were the words she chose, and her precious life was actually taken at this concert she was so excited to attend is too much for me to ignore. This stuck with me all night. They say everything happens for a reason but what reason is this??? What is the reason for any of these tragic events that occur?! Why do things like this KEEP happening? Yes some people are f’d up in the head and they commit these crimes but there’s more to it all! There’s got to be.

Are there any real ways to prevent these things happening ever again?It’s hard to have these questions that we’ll never have answered. It’s hard to wonder when and what is going to happen next. It’s hard to wonder which of our loved ones lives, or just innocent lives in general will be taken. Our world is so beautiful, yet so scary at the same time.

What was supposed to be an epic night of fun, turned to a horrible tragedy. We’re going to start being afraid to go anywhere. We can’t even send young children out to enjoy themselves without something happening??? Prayers go out to EVERY victim involved or affected!😢

You’re all truly in my heart❤️

Mystery Blog Award 2 & 3!

I’ve recently been nominated for the Mystery Blog award twice since the first time! So I will combining the two in this post. Special thanks to Fleur from Simply Fleur, and Silvia from The Happiest Pixel. They have lovely blogs that you all should check out:) especially if you like DIY projects. Also a huge thank you to Okoto for creating this award.

Rules

• Thank whoever nominated you and leave a link to their blog.

• Mention the creator of the award

• Tell your readers 3 things about yourself

• Nominate 10-20 people

• Ask nominees any 5 questions of your choice

• Share the link to your best/favourite post of yours.

3 Things About Myself: (x2)

  1. I went to 5 different elementary schools.
  2. I’ve moved from house to house a total of 12 times so far.
  3. I had a dog named Confusion. She was a Rottweiler Pitbull mix.
  4. I’ve played the flute, recorder, cello, viola, bass, and violin. The violin was my favorite. I was pretty good at it and I wish I kept up with it. I really want to learn piano and guitar now.
  5. I love learning new, interesting words.
  6. I love going to recording studios. I’ve only went to a few with my cousin but it always feels like I belong there.

My Best/Favorite Posts:

10 Reasons I Might Follow Your Blog still seems to be going strong as my best post

Mystery Blog #1 is now in 2nd place for best post

A Writer’s Worst Enemy is one of my favorite posts

Short Story Saturday “Letter To My Mother Away” is another favorite of mine because it is so deep to my heart

Fleur & Silvia’s Questions: (I have already answered some of the questions recently on my first Mystery Blog Award so those questions I have left out. You can read them in the link above)

  1. What three makeup/beauty items could you not live without? A lip balm/moisturizer, a mirror, razor?
  2. What is your favourite shop? Probably any crafting shop or Walmart lol
  3. What is your go to outfit? Anything I can be comfortable in! So, not jeans lol. I love a cute pair of jeans but I can’t stand having them on too long.
  4. How would you describe your style? Cute, comfortable and relaxed. I don’t really know how I would describe it lol. I just wear things according to the occasion or my mood. I’m not really into style, or fashion trends. If I see it and like it, I’ll wear it.
  5. What is your favourite sweet food? That’s a hard one. But i’m gonna go with an easy and safe answer. Cookies or brownies. If I were to think really hard right now I’m sure I could come up with something I like better, but I don’t want to think hard. lol.
  6. What are 3 words you like? Epiphany, Euphoria, Iridescent are some of my favorite words.
  7. Where is one place in the world you’ve always wanted to visit? I’ve always wanted to go to Disney World!

 

My nominees: 

I nominate anyone who wants to participate even if you have already. If you want to answer my questions, If you’re reading this and you’re having writers block lately, or you’re just bored right now- consider yourself nominated!:)
My Questions:

  1. Would you rather be a news reporter, or a teacher?
  2. Were you more of a Disney kid, or Nickelodeon?
  3. What is your favorite throwback Disney show?
  4. If you had the chance to permanently remove/destroy ALL guns, drugs or alcohol, which would you choose?
  5. You’ve just found $10 (yes only 10 lol) on the sidewalk, what do you buy with it?

I hope to see some of you participating, i’d love to read your answers.💖

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Words Of The Week✨

If you’re new to my blog, or you haven’t stopped by in a while, last week I introduced something else I would be adding. Every week on Monday or Tuesday I will be posting a lists of 10 words (7 from word of the day websites, and 3 of my own choices)
these can be words I am just learning, words that I like or find interesting, or maybe a definition that I love. Feel free to suggest any words in the comments. This weeks words are…

Purloin- To take dishonestly; steal.

Ephemeral- Lasting for a markedly brief time.

Myriad- Constituting a very large, indefinite number.

Plethora- A superabundance; an excessive amount or number.

Dogmatic- Expressing rigid opinions or strongly held beliefs.

Opulent- Rich/wealthy and luxurious or lavish.

Grok- To understand something intuitively or by empathy.

My Choices:

*Snollygoster- A person, especially a politician, who is guided by personal advantage rather than by respectable principles.

*Zephyr- A soft gentle breeze.

*Azure- A variation of blue; a clear blue, cloudless sky.

Those are our 10 words for the week. Have you used any of them before? Any of them new to you? Could you use any in a sentence? Comment below.💖

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