Poetry makes you feel & think…✨

There are times when poetry can tell the perfect story. There are times when a poem sums up your entire life, or even just the situation you are in. I love reading and writing those most. You can feel all of the emotion but there’s something about those words that can temporarily take the pain away, or have you thinking differently in a positive way. You feel inspired. At least I do.

There are a few poems Cherylene has written that has done just that- described my feelings and current situation and then brought light to my dark thoughts. I’ll be sharing them with you today and also why I felt a connection.

A snippet of Cherylene’s poem Breakthrough:

“…This type of existence is diminishing your significance

That self-defeating attitude is drying up your gratitude…”

My connection: Yes! The issues I am currently dealing with and how I am handling them are causing me to live a depressed existence. Keeping me from following in my life purpose which I believe is to tell my story and inspire others through my writing and other ways of creativity. To help others. I can’t begin to help others until I can help myself. This self-defeating attitude I have lately is only doing me harm.

Cherylene’s Poem I Refuse:

I refuse to be still

As you seek power over my will

I refuse to be quiet when there’s so much to say

Can’t stay silent another day

I refuse to be the victim

So that kind of thinking

I’m definitely changing

I refuse to do nothing

When I know I can do something

I refuse to accept mediocrity

As this limits who I can truly be

I refuse to let you steal my joy

Playing with it like some sort of toy

I refuse to give your negative words meaning

It’s my happiness you’re intent on stealing

I refuse to believe the lies you’ve told

In an effort to corrupt my soul

I refuse to be anyone but me

Because even in my imperfection

My life still has direction

So long as I have purpose

I will continue to focus

So you do you

And I’ll do me

In the end

I will still be free.

My connection: Usually, when i’m feeling down or hurt about something I keep quiet about it. In general I let all of my thoughts and emotions build up inside of me until I can take no more and explode. Many people have walked all over me and taken advantage of me because of this. I’ve been picked on and bullied because of this. Many people underestimate me because of this. I can continue to be silent and do nothing but i’m choosing to speak and take action. This is for my personal life and blog life. I refuse to continue my blog like this while i’m not happy with it, I refuse to be afraid of changing and losing views/follows by making a fresh start. The fresh start is needed and needs are better for us than our wants. I’m not at my best right now but my life still has direction and purpose. I will stay focused. I will be free, and happy.

A snippet of Cherylene’s Daily Post Prompt (using the word catapult) Life Challenges:

“…Just when we feel like giving up

Just when we wished the world would stop

Just when we’ve said, “enough is enough”

In come our blessings to catapult us up

Up, above and out of the strife

Up and into a better life

All we had to do was endure

All we had to do was explore

Digging deep into our core

Soon to discover we are so much more.”

My connection: I came very close to giving up many times, I’ve had to endure many things in life but usually after a very bad time a blessing follows. I believe that things will be better soon, I believe blessings are coming as long as I keep that faith and keep going, as long as I keep exploring life and digging deep into my soul.

Never give up on life or the things you truly love that serve you purpose. I add “that serve you purpose” because not everything or everyone we love should be held onto. Not everyone or everything we love is good for us but life in general is something to never give up, no matter what!

Please leave any comments you have and make sure to visit Cherylene’s blog and check out her poetry while you’re there.✨

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Maggie’s Blog Rhyme✨

We’re at the last day for Maggie’s features and I thought instead of doing a story (since there will be a change with that coming to my new blog) I would put her about me and blog description in rhyme. I love putting things in rhyme lol.

Next week I will be featuring Pamela from StarringPamela 🙂
I also will have a weekend pickup post coming Monday. I actually just got back home from doing a little more shopping 🙂

Now let’s get into Maggie’s Blog Rhyme

Maggie has been blogging since She was only ten. Seventeen now, she’s learned a lot since then. She’s learned to love and have faith in the lord in all he has in store.
He called her to serve him in Guatemala, Dreaming of Guatemala was born.
Not knowing when, not knowing how but knowing without a doubt,
leaving it all in his hands would get her there.
She loves blogging so much, inspiring others, writing her accomplishments and interviewing other bloggers.

She also loves baking and trying new treats, being creative and learning new things.
She reads historical fiction novels, listens to Leeland’s and Jordan Feliz’s music,
loves watching fun challenges on YouTube, experimenting with photography, watching comedy and learning Spanish.
But most importantly she loves spending time with her family.💖

Thank you Maggie for being such a bright light in this world, and always supporting other bloggers in this community. I think I can speak for all when I say we really appreciate it. Continue to let your light shine, never let it dim!
I admire the fact that you’ve been blogging so long! I wish I had known when I was ten years old that a diary wasn’t the only place to express myself. Even at 16, 17. I was still writing in those diaries. Your passions are beautiful and so are you.
I enjoyed featuring you all week 🙂 thank you one last time for participating.

Party In The Garden: My Summer Party Playlist Lyrics🌻🎶

The time has come for my summer hit lyrics! Are you all ready?!

I’ve added in a recording of the first verse just so you can hear exactly how I imagined it to be. I am not a singer by any means (I wish I was aha) so it doesn’t sound spectacular by any means, but I thought you all would love and want to know how it would sound instead of just reading the lyrics. That would be no fun right?

Click here to listen to the first verse. Click here for the full instrumental/beat.

Party in the Garden by Lee @GoldenPinkJournal
Spring has just ended
summer has begun
Flowers have been blooming
time to have some fun
Grab some shorts or a dress
It don’t matter just dress your best
Summer parties or a swim
We can even take a trip
Vacation in a paradise
You’ve just got to have an open mind
Open your eyes

Oh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahh

I just wanna go go go
To a place I’ve never been before
I just wanna know know know
What this summer has in store
It can be the best yet
Beauty in the sunset
Does anyone wanna join in?
Everyone’s invited to my summer party
Not your ordinary
You can find me in the garden
Dancing with the daisies
Dancing with sunflowers
All through the hours
I’m singing my own tune
But can I sing with you?

The birds have been singing
The sun has been shining all on us
When the night comes
light the fireworks
We’re having so much fun
If you’re still not here yet
Grab some shorts or a dress
It don’t matter just dress your best
Summer parties or a swim
We can even take a trip

Oh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahh

Summers close to ending
we don’t have to end it
Before falls beginning we can just pretend that
there’s a few more hot moments
and memories to make
Memories to bring
to the next season
Another party in the garden
No more flowers
We’re dancing with the leaves
But we done have to leave

Oh yeah yeah yeah

I just wanna stay stay stay
In this place in this space
I don’t wanna go go go
What this summer has in store
It has been the best yet
Beauty in the sunset
Anyone else wanna join in?
Everyone’s invited to my summer party
Not your ordinary
Find me in the garden
Dancing with the daisies
Dancing with sunflowers
all through the hours
Singing my own tune
Will you sing it too?

Ahhh that’s it, what do you think? Let me know in the comments! I think I want to make another one lol. Also, I mentioned that I will be extending the Summer Party Playlist Project. I have decided not to extend it because I don’t believe I will have any more entries and I’m moving on to some changes. This is now the end of the project. I only had 4 submissions and I don’t know of any albums or playlists that are that short lol. My plans for this didn’t work out well but that’s okay, I understand everyone can’t participate in everything, no worries. Thank you to those of you who did participate:) 

Check out their entries below, I loveee them all!

Elsie’s Entry – Summer Bucket List

Hannah Maggies Entry – The Beautiful Everyday (video poem)

Wonderwall’s Entry – Summer Love That Lasted

TipsAndTricksForLifeBlog’s Entry – Summer Flame (lyrics) read them below!

~summer flame~
This place is not the same anymore
I walk around feeling lost without you
My eyes are still staring at the door
Waiting for your smile to come through
Waiting for your hand on my shoulder
Waiting for your walk around me
Waiting for you, while it gets colder
But the sun is gone and now I see
You were just a summerflame
But I kept the fire for us going
You only wanted the sumer fame
Now it’s with her you keep on rolling
I miss your smell in my nose
I miss the looks you gave me
And I think no one knows
I wanted you to be with me
I miss the movements you made
Our last words supposed to be goodbye
But I’m still dreaming about a moment
That you come in just to say hi
But I guess You were just a summerflame
But I kept the fire for us going
You only wanted the sumer fame
Now it”s with her you keep on rolling
But you had your moment of doubt
And I could read it from your face
Maybe you were just too proud
And that’s why you let us go to waste
Can’t think about that car,
without you on my mind,
I have to touch it
everytime I’m around
But I guess You were just a summerflame
But I kept the fire for us going
You only wanted the sumer fame
Now it’s with her you keep on rolling
When will you understand
What you did when we touch hands
I hope some day you understand
That I only wished to stay friends
Did you enjoy my lyrics and all of the entries? If you did submit an entry and I just didn’t see it please let me know so I can add to this list!
Let each of the participants know how great of a job they did, these entries were amazing! Again, thank you so much💕

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Volume: Before the song is over…🎶

I can hear the soundtrack of life playing on the radio
A rather catchy tune
Tuning out all the unfortunate happenings
and tragedies I’ve experienced or could remember

I need to turn the volume up
I need to dance
I need to sing
Loud and proud
I need to smile
I need to allow this joy into my hopes of peace

I need to sing
I need to dance
I need to enjoy the soundtrack of life

before it comes to an end

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Impression: Daily Word Prompt

I wanted to try out a daily prompt. I’ve been seeing them from The Daily Post but just haven’t had the time or motivation to participate in one yet. Well now I do! Today’s word prompt is the word “impression.”
I just wrote this poem literally minutes ago and I didn’t think about it or edit. I just wrote. Let me know what you think in the comments✨

Wrong Impression

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

Faulty opinions; everybody has them

Defamation

False accusations and allegations

That’s where I shut you down 

As I make my statement what do you say now?

Just an expression

You’re just expressing your first amendment?

Or you say that in that way, you didn’t really mean it

I’m offended when my intelligence is insulted

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

I am a strong woman

I am not weak because of the fact that when you bark 

I do no speak 

Actions speak louder than words

Your soft little bark was not feared 

I don’t entertain you

You entertain me with your delusions and your words with no credibility 

You entertain me with your jealousy 

And I will be your confirmation 

Yes

I am an easy target

A battle with me will be like easily losing to your worst enemy 

When you’re so focused on me

You miss out on your own possibilities and opportunities 

Yet I still only wish the best for you

If for good reason, I’d be happy to finally see you smile

I’m sorry you’ve got the wrong impression 

I’m not the type to kick you when you’re already down 

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Short Story Saturday✨

Who’s got a shoulder when I need to cry
I feel restless and I don’t know why
Cry for help, but still feel alone
Like a motherless child along way from home
Lord I’m lost I can’t find my way
I’m dealing with the struggles in my day to day
My soul is weak and I wanna be strong
I try to run away but I’ve been running too long…
Motherless Child lyrics

Everyone has a mother, that’s how we’re all here. That’s why many of us are getting ready to celebrate Mother’s Day.

I haven’t been able to celebrate properly since my mother has been away, out of my life since I was about 3 from what I can remember. She was trapped in a high that could not accept motherhood. I always hoped some miracle would happen, where she would come back for me or we would meet. But if we met would she notice me? I probably wouldn’t recognize her. It became a dream of mine to meet my mother and have her love, and for that I would give anything up.

(Today’s story is not fiction. This is a part of my life. Listen to the songs that inspired me to tell this portion of my story and the poem I wrote: Kehlani – The LetterLabrinth – JealousJohn Legend – Motherless Child) *I highly recommend listening to these songs if you haven’t already. Especially if you have a similar story*

Sophomore year a miracle happened but I didn’t have to give up anything. I rarely get to see my mothers side of the family and I barely know them. I’ve only met my uncle, my grandparents, and 2 cousins so it’s always nice when I do get to see them. My uncle contacted me and my older brother D, (I’ll just call him by the first initial of his name) D is the brother that was in foster care with me, but had to stay when my father got me out because we only share the same mother. We were so close when we were younger. Sadly things aren’t the same…

Back to the story, we were informed we would be picked up to go spend some time with him and our grandparents. For some reason, I felt like it was more to it than that. I had this really good feeling in my heart like something great was about to happen. I was right.

When we arrived at my grandparents house, there was a woman standing outside on the porch waiting. I couldn’t recognize her but I guess my heart could? I felt it and knew in my heart who that woman was. I got out of the car and we basically went to each other with open arms. Before we got out the car my uncle said “We have a surprise. That’s your mama,” but like I said, I already knew. It was supposed to be more of a surprise for me because my brother had a little more contact with her than I ever did. I guess because he is oldest so it was easier for him to understand things. She instantly started to cry and apologize for not being there all those years, and for doing the things she did that kept her away. She made sure to tell me she loves me and always has. She was just sick and she wished she could take it all back. I was never angry at her and I couldn’t cry because I was just too happy and shocked that the moment was even happening. It could have very well been a dream.

I thought things would change that day, but this time my thoughts were wrong. She disappeared and I didn’t hear from her again until I was about 20 years old. I had been looking for her, asking around. Calling my uncle asking him. No one knew where she was or had heard from her in a while, but then my uncle calls back and says they’ve found out she’s in the hospital with pneumonia. He gave me the hospital name and some other information and we hang up. I immediately call the hospital but the nurse tells me she is sleeping at the moment so call back in a little while. I believe she gave me a specific time to call back, I’m not sure but I’ll go with that. I called back at that specific time and finally, I heard my mothers voice. She told me the nurse told her that her daughter called (I’m her only daughter) and she felt such a blessing over her and hoped I would call back. We talked for a while and I made plans to visit, it felt like that same miracle all over again. Only this time maybe things would turn out better, maybe the timing was better. Maybe meeting under the circumstances would bring a change in her. I don’t know. I just always have high hopes.

Finally arriving to her hospital room and hugging her again only made those hopes higher. Sadly, I was wrong again. We kept in touch a while longer than the first time, but not long enough. This time she was gone right before Mother’s Day…

I can’t explain what I felt then, but it was much worse than any pain I felt before meeting her. I even wondered if I should just give up because it would always end like this. Everyone told me she would make promises she couldn’t keep. Maybe I should have listened…but I can’t. I can’t give up on her or my hopes of having that mother daughter relationship I’ve always wanted and deserved. Maybe the 3rd time we meet will be the charm.

Letter To My Mother Away

Mother you’re away still 

I’ve never been able to celebrate with you for Mother’s Day,

or any other occasion.

Every year I watch all the other sons and daughters with their mothers

I tell my aunt Happy Mother’s Day! But it’s just not the same…

She has her own children 

Like you have your own

But you left yours to be all alone

High off life without me

It couldn’t have been easy 

But it was harder being low and sober 

You needed it but you didn’t need 

Me as a baby, and the thought of you leaving

The pain makes me queasy

And I blame you for many things

The root of my pain 

But I never hated you

I still love you 

Even when I barely know you

It’s such a shame

How do you even remember me?

You told me you didn’t remember my little brothers name

But I still love you

I was still happy I could be there with you for a moment 

and you were okay

It felt like a miracle 

I was in the hospital only months before from that car crash

Then there I was 

Walking through hospital doors 

To meet you alive

Smiling and laughing 

Giving me advice for the first time

Promising we’d keep in touch this time for the second time 

It was the best day of my life

I thought I’d finally have you in my life

And I did for a while

Then Mother’s Day came around

You were no where to be found…

Mother away

It’s been about 2 years since then

I haven’t heard from you since

But I’ve been told you’ve been seen and you’ve been asking about me

Is it true?

But if you really wanted me 

I know you could find me 

just like I found you

Still I love you

And I have hope

Broken hope 

That has not died

And If it’s not too late

When you come around

(Please don’t wait 

to come around)

I’ll be by your side 

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Frustration (Inspiration of the day✨)

2:30 AM

I’m sitting here with so much frustration

I can’t sleep and I can’t think straight

My mind is all over the place

I wish I was calm and relaxed 

Hopefully in the morning I’ll wake up happier than tonight.

 I feel like a mad woman sometimes 

All crazy in the head 

Why can’t I just turn these thoughts and feelings off, not even for a few hours?

I just want to be dreaming

peacefully, 

It feels like it’s been about 10 minutes.. But it’s only been 3.

I must be tired

Am I now fighting my sleep?

I must try one more time

Close my eyes…

If I don’t return tonight… nothing more to say until morning

I wrote this last night, as it says, at 2 in the morning. Last night for some reason I was just so irritated and everything was bothering me. This kept me up all night. I kept trying to force myself to sleep, laying in the dark, everything off. That wasn’t working because my thoughts were still on and they’re always loudest at night- it seems.

I tried sitting on the balcony, watching some YouTube videos, it Just seemed like nothing could clear my head and calm me enough to sleep. I basically had a small temper tantrum at this point because I could not sleep. I slammed the bedroom door when I came back in, and threw the remote control off of the bed…

Seriously, what the heck was I going through😐😐😐

Eventually I decided I should just read, (I searched a few things on Google as usual) and then I read some blogs. That’s when I started to write the intro to this post, in my notes.

After a few minutes, I felt tired and calm. I closed my eyes and finally fell asleep. 

I did wake up this morning feeling much better, but I also felt silly because I was so upset for no particular reason, it was just small things in general. I let those little things get to me and cause me to have a fit, and lose sleep. Next time I’ll have to remind myself that the sun shines again. Next time I’ll know to try reading and writing first!

It is now 11:06 PM and I’m going to close this out, catch up on some unnecessary missed Z’s and enjoy this calm.

Sleep tight, don’t let frustration keep you up at night.😉


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