I’m sitting here with so much frustration
I can’t sleep and I can’t think straight
My mind is all over the place
I wish I was calm and relaxed
Hopefully in the morning I’ll wake up happier than tonight.
I feel like a mad woman sometimes
All crazy in the head
Why can’t I just turn these thoughts and feelings off, not even for a few hours?
I just want to be dreaming
It feels like it’s been about 10 minutes.. But it’s only been 3.
I must be tired
Am I now fighting my sleep?
I must try one more time
Close my eyes…
If I don’t return tonight… nothing more to say until morning
I wrote this last night, as it says, at 2 in the morning. Last night for some reason I was just so irritated and everything was bothering me. This kept me up all night. I kept trying to force myself to sleep, laying in the dark, everything off. That wasn’t working because my thoughts were still on and they’re always loudest at night- it seems.
I tried sitting on the balcony, watching some YouTube videos, it Just seemed like nothing could clear my head and calm me enough to sleep. I basically had a small temper tantrum at this point because I could not sleep. I slammed the bedroom door when I came back in, and threw the remote control off of the bed…
Seriously, what the heck was I going through😐😐😐
Eventually I decided I should just read, (I searched a few things on Google as usual) and then I read some blogs. That’s when I started to write the intro to this post, in my notes.
After a few minutes, I felt tired and calm. I closed my eyes and finally fell asleep.
I did wake up this morning feeling much better, but I also felt silly because I was so upset for no particular reason, it was just small things in general. I let those little things get to me and cause me to have a fit, and lose sleep. Next time I’ll have to remind myself that the sun shines again. Next time I’ll know to try reading and writing first!
It is now 11:06 PM and I’m going to close this out, catch up on some unnecessary missed Z’s and enjoy this calm.
Sleep tight, don’t let frustration keep you up at night.😉